There is one thing in life that haunts me as an idol that is constantly fighting for first place above God in my life. Someone asked me once if I was desperate to (insert idol here). Granted... it's a good thing. A godly thing. A Biblical thing. Something I am called to in a very deep way. I told them no, I was not deperate. Wondering why I said that at the time. Yet knowing it was true. So I was thinking today. Whenever I am desperate... it seems He removes the outlets that I have to calm that desperation. To fulfill it. To satisfy it. So the only place left to funnel it is... Him. By the time it goes through Him... I am no longer desperate. I still may ache... but my heart is held. He teaches me to trust through the hardest things. 
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